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Geek Girl Strong's 1up Wellness Challenge
Feb. 3rd, 2019 11:50 amIt is Sunday and there is sunshine. And today I started the Geek Girl Strong's 1up Wellness Challenge.
Kiddo was out with his grandparents this morning so I wanted to get started as soon as I got up.
Part of this was taking a walk. Without electronics. I didn't realize how much that I normally have going on when I was running. I would turn on a podcast. Then I would turn on the app that measures distance/speed. Then I would turn on Couch to 5K. Then Pokemon. Then I would run.
Today I just walked, by myself for about 45 minutes. I really hate dwelling on my thoughts because I rarely end up happy with myself when I do that. I though why I am doing this challenge and I came to the realization that I spend so much of my time and energy focusing on my toddler. I am trying so hard to make sure he is Happy, Healthy, Growing and Thriving. If I want to be a good role model, I have to make sure that I am also Happy, Healthy, Growing and Thriving.
And right now I don't think I can really check any of those of. I would call myself content rather then happy. I am not unhealthy but not really healthy. I am feeling a bit stagnant in a lot of places. I would stay I am surviving rather then thriving.
I have been having a hard time with my mental health recently. Getting out of bed in the morning has been a major struggle. Which means I have to skip other things to make it to work on time (breakfast, basic grooming) and I feel like I have to rush the kiddo because of that. Which I really shouldn't do.
Based on my past I know that part of it is the weather (cold, wet, dreary) and while I like snow, I do not like snow when I still have to go out in it to work. I know that I haven't been as active (which is part due to the cold). I know that I haven't kept up with cleaning and the amount of mess in the house is directly connected with the amount of mess in my head. And all of this is is a vicious cycle. I don't want to get out of bed, so I have to rush to get out of the house. This means I don't take the time to clean up the breakfast dishes or mess. Which means it is waiting for me when I get home. Which makes me upset and I don't want to clean that up and cook dinner and do whatever other cleaning I need to do.
This was much heavier then I expected. But at least I am being honest with myself.
Kiddo was out with his grandparents this morning so I wanted to get started as soon as I got up.
Part of this was taking a walk. Without electronics. I didn't realize how much that I normally have going on when I was running. I would turn on a podcast. Then I would turn on the app that measures distance/speed. Then I would turn on Couch to 5K. Then Pokemon. Then I would run.
Today I just walked, by myself for about 45 minutes. I really hate dwelling on my thoughts because I rarely end up happy with myself when I do that. I though why I am doing this challenge and I came to the realization that I spend so much of my time and energy focusing on my toddler. I am trying so hard to make sure he is Happy, Healthy, Growing and Thriving. If I want to be a good role model, I have to make sure that I am also Happy, Healthy, Growing and Thriving.
And right now I don't think I can really check any of those of. I would call myself content rather then happy. I am not unhealthy but not really healthy. I am feeling a bit stagnant in a lot of places. I would stay I am surviving rather then thriving.
I have been having a hard time with my mental health recently. Getting out of bed in the morning has been a major struggle. Which means I have to skip other things to make it to work on time (breakfast, basic grooming) and I feel like I have to rush the kiddo because of that. Which I really shouldn't do.
Based on my past I know that part of it is the weather (cold, wet, dreary) and while I like snow, I do not like snow when I still have to go out in it to work. I know that I haven't been as active (which is part due to the cold). I know that I haven't kept up with cleaning and the amount of mess in the house is directly connected with the amount of mess in my head. And all of this is is a vicious cycle. I don't want to get out of bed, so I have to rush to get out of the house. This means I don't take the time to clean up the breakfast dishes or mess. Which means it is waiting for me when I get home. Which makes me upset and I don't want to clean that up and cook dinner and do whatever other cleaning I need to do.
This was much heavier then I expected. But at least I am being honest with myself.
